Day 4: Someone I Have Always Wanted To Meet And…UGH!

You know, I have wracked my brain on this one. You would think since I picked the questions I would pick ones I knew my answer to already. WHAT was I thinking? Lol I will give a shout out to my friend Rosemary in Australia. I would LOVE to meet her and hopefully one day, that will happen. For now though, I am thankful for the interweb so we can stay in touch. I love her muchly!!

There is only one other thing that comes to my mind regarding this, and that is: another question. I LOVE musicals. Right from the time I was a little kid, I always wished that life was like a musical in the sense that we would sing to each other. I know some of you are way better singers than some of us but if it was a “norm” would we even notice that in that respect? I wouldn’t want to take away from amazing singers but it wouldn’t have to. Singing would be talking and better singers could still do it for a living. The only that would change was every once in a while we would break into song. Yes, I’m a dork.

I’m afraid I don’t have tonnes of inspiration today, even to just sit here and write. It’s a beautiful day but I sense depression on my doorstep. I always know when it is there and as it comes closer so I know now is the time to fight it unless  I’m too late and it comes in. Being in a depression state isn’t the worse thing ( anxiety is WAY worse IMHO). Sometimes I even welcome it like an old friend. It’s so weird. I hate depression yet sometimes I love it. I guess in a way it has become natural. It has become a natural state and when I’m not depressed I sometimes am even lost because it feels so unnatural to me. Depression is different for everyone and where some people ( a lot of people actually ) have chosen to poeticize it, I choose not to because I don’t believe depression deserves that. Just because I welcome it ( sometimes )and just because we talk about it more and “accept“ it, I still believe that, like cancer, it isn’t a normal and natural state. We don’t poeticize cancer, in fact, we HATE cancer. I hate depression and in my mind, in my own body, in my own state, I see it as a weakness in me. I don’t feel that way about others, but I see a weakness and fear in me and the result is depression. Friends, this is my personal opinion on my own depression. There is nothing that annoys me more than when I see the lists of things to do “when you are depressed.“ HELLO. Depression takes so much away including a desire to even get better. Even to learn all that ahead of time, it just doesn’t work. The hardest thing to do when you are depressed is to take that “next step.“ But you know what, that is the only thing I can do and sometimes that next step is just getting out of bed.

Anyway, I’m not sure where that came from. I guess I went with it. I have an appointment tomorrow and I imagine I might feel better or worse after it. I will just repeat to myself that I will not judge myself on my health and the things I don’t do right with it. I will just do better next time.

Toodles friends! Have an amazing day! I loves you!

Day 2: Basic Things About MOI!

What can I say? My name is Alexis Plett. Married to my guy for 22 years in June ( wowsers)! We have two awesome boys who are 20 and 17. I won’t mention any names, Not now anyway. 🙂

That’s it! HA! That is definitely NOT 500 words. My identity has been wrapped around my kids and husband ,so to be honest, I don’t know ME very well. I have been on a quest to get to know me. A big part of my quest is understanding who I am in Christ. My faith is very important to me and I have had a major paradigm shift in the last couple years, especially. Luckily my husband is on the journey with me so we are together….but ALONE in many ways. It’s interesting. Something happens to Evangelical Christians when you tell them that GOD loves everyone and that Jesus died for everyone. I won’t get into that right now. I don’t want to make this about that right now, but we seem to be losing some friends over this new belief ( this new belief to US). It’s cray cray. So yes…I am trying to find out who this Alexis person is. When I know, I will introduce you

What do I love? Smart Food White Cheddar Popcorn, Pepsi Max and Hairspray Live. I am to the point that I will watch Hairspray Live after everyone is in bed so they don’t know or bug me about it. My family sometimes think I am crazy mad and maybe I am. I am sure I have seen the movie a million times. The same with Mamma Mia, Grease Live and Julie & Julia. I have been like this as far as I can remember. I remember when the song Life is a Highway by Tom Cochran came out. I played that song to death. I remember my roommates were ready to kill me. Lol I’m like that with foods too. I few years ago I was on a chicken fingers wrapped in a tortilla kick. That’s all I ate for a long time. It’s no wonder my youngest son has some of those qualities too. It sounds so weird. I sound weird.

My husband and I are both turning 49 this year. Yikes. Nervous I am. It sounds so old to me. I mean, for me to be that old, not others. I can hardly even believe it. Where has the time gone and what do I have to show for it. In some ways, I have lots…mainly my amazing boys. In some ways I have nothing…who am I? I don’t even know me! In some ways, why does it even matter… God is good and He has me on an amazing journey that will take me places I can’t even dream about. If I can dream about it, I don’t even want to go there which might give you a clue as far as tomorrow goes and my next topic. ” hint hint!”

Dream big friends! I loves you!

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